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While using...

Before quitting I was a regular and heavy user.

I quit because I'm looking for an internship, and a lot of them allegedly drug test. I also have OCD, and I had grown increasingly aware of the fact that my growing weed intake was having a negative impact on my mental health.

The cravings throughout the day grew too intense - I just had to get through the day so I could go home and take a huge bong rip. Speaking of bong rips, I would regularly get way too high, and I wouldn't have any fun at all. I've known for a long time that I needed to cut back or quit.

I also noticed that it was considerably impacting my social and creative life.

Finally, it was having pretty significant negative consequences for my cognition.

Ultimately, the external pressure of a potential drug test is what caused me to pull the trigger.

Methodology



Days 1-10 | Test 4.23.25 (+)

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Experience:

I had a horrible migraine and threw up (hard for me to do) on day 2, bought CBD the next day to ease symptoms, which has worked.
I purchased the left online at Holy City Farms and the right at my local head shop.

I was told that head shop flower would be lower quality than stuff you'd get at a dispo, but I gotta say, it knocks me out real good. I've slept like a baby since I bought it. When I'm wracked with pain and nausea, this is the flower I reach for - it soothes my nerves very nicely.

The following symptoms are being managed by daily CBD use:

Said irritability/aggression encouraged a (self harm!) relapse and nasty bruise on my thigh. Easily this is the worst bruise I've ever given myself.
[TW: SELF HARM - 4.21.25]

Even while "medicated", I feel like I don't belong in my body, and I feel generally uncomfortable at all times. I have lost interest in doing things that normally bring me joy, like 6 hour Cyberpunk 2077 binges, writing and drawing. I'm struggling to get homework finished - thank god I don't have much.

The cravings, of course, aren't gone. In my experience with kicking habits, replacing the habit is 90% of the battle. It was much easier to just replace THC (≥ 12%) with CBD (≤ .3%) while I detox. I don't intend on smoking nearly as much CBD once I'm finished with withdrawals - I'm just setting up myself for success!

I find full spectrum CBD has the same effects that I like from THC - it calms down my nervous system, which is notoriously over-reactive, and boosts my mood. It makes my body feel "softer", if that makes sense - there's a slight buzz, but I'm not intoxicated. It feels like how I felt the one time I experienced secondhand smoke.



Days 11-17 | Test 4.30.25 (+)

Blink and you'll miss it- there is a very, very faint line for negative! Which could mean nothing. I flubbed the date and already threw out the test so ignore that.

It should be noted that I did not drink enough water today.

Experience:

I have been feeling better every day! The physical symptoms have largely gone away. I've been having a harder time winding down before bed - The night of 4/29, I returned to my liquid DPH. I'm trying to do puzzles before bed to transition more easily to sleep.

The malaise/depression has been bothering me less lately. I'm playing video games again! I haven't returned to drawing, but I think that's due to my drawing class taking up so much of my juice.

My irritability seems to be getting worse. I am far less patient, and have turned to muting people I normally enjoy speaking to. Traffic is pissing me off, people in stores are pissing me off more than usual, I have very pointedly continued to ignore social media. My IRLs have been far more tolerable - I even hung out with one of my friends today :) We got mexican food truck for dinner. I had the best burrito I've ever eaten in my life, as well as a few goodies from a beauty store. Anyway.

I want to say my focus has improved, but that's always finicky at best. Some days are better than others - I can't account for natural variation. I need more data to conclude for sure whether there's an improvement.

We have a communal laundry room at my apartment complex - someone had left CBD/smoke shop coupons to take. I got a couple of CBD disposables, one of which was free. Still kind of expensive I think but whatever. I ran out of my indica flower, so I bought an oz - I wanted a half oz, but they only had an eighth and an oz, and getting multiple eighths is just such a waste of plastic.

Not sure what to do with myself, I've picked up chess, and I'm playing picross again. It feels really good, picking up on chess so quickly. I thought I was hopeless, but I just needed an intentionally designed website/app to help me. Thank you, chess.com! (I'm nosferatu1929 there, btw)

I also did quite a bit of reading this last shabbat (4/26)! Only a couple of hours, but thats far more than what I had been doing.

I have a metal show at a new venue tomorrow (5/1), and I plan on being completely sober - no alcohol! We'll see if I enjoy it.



Days 18-24 | Test 5.7.25 (+)

Experience:

Baseline anxiety is higher. I keep almost having anxiety attacks.. which is huge (bad) since I haven't actually had one for years now. Luckily my best friend Progressive muscle relaxation has been there every time I nearly freaked out.

Obviously there aren't many notable improvements in memory and cognition... that takes time. But there has been some improvement! Which is better than nothing!

I didn't end up going to that concert. I had a packed schedule that day which ended in a migraine...sad!

Overall, sleep is not worse than I'm used to, and my dreams are pretty unremarkable. I am dreaming every night now though, which is crazy. Other people's dreams aren't terribly interesting since you, the reader, aren't feeling the emotions I did. But know that my apocalypse dream last night was very immersive. It involved trying to pen in my cats when we didn't actually have a house. I actually couldn't get further than this in my dream because my unconscious brain was trying desperately to find a way to keep my cats safe, especially Backpack, since I knew that my wife would probably kill himself if she died. NIGHTMARE!



Days 25-31 | Test 5.14.25 (+)

Experience:

IT'S OFFICIALLY BEEN A MONTH!

As of writing this, I feel like I've muscled past all the withdrawal symptoms. These last few days I have felt very confident and comfortable. Better than I've felt for a long time!

This week was finals week. Foundational drawing was nice, my statistical analysis final wasn't too bad, I got a C on my restoration ecology final and you know what! I'LL TAKE IT. Said restoration ecology lab final also wasn't too hard. For my 4 minute section of our presentation, I practiced for a little over an hour. That seemed to be the goldilocks zone - not so practiced I'm stiff, but practiced enough that I'm comfortable. Normally when I speak in front of a group, my head like, vibrates? IT DIDN'T!

This may be confirmation bias since I didn't document my OCD stuff before, but I feel like stopping my mental compulsions is easier. Maybe that's just from practice. I think no weed is helping, too.

I don't really get cravings anymore. I get a twinge of, man being high would feel good, but I don't really have any desire to act on it. My wife is transitioning from flower to edibles, which will further depreciate any urges I might have. CBD feels like cheating but honestly, I don't know if I could have held out this long without it. I really enjoy the process of smoking - grinding, packing, lighting up, etc - so being able to replace it with an identical substance that doesn't get me high and scare me has been great. Maybe I'll get off CBD one day, but for now I'm content replacing the habit.

I've gotten back into keeping my phone out of the bedroom. A big hit of CBD (indica) and a few rounds of picross are reliably able to knock me out.



Days 32-38 | Test 5.21.25 (+ almost - )

Experience:

I'm sooo close to pissing clean I can almost taste it. I could probably fudge and say that this is negative but I'm looking for a darker line. I drank a little over 2L of water today. (King of being hydrated!)

I feel back to normal, but better. I'm dreaming almost every night, but the kind of dreams I used to have when I was a kid. For years I've missed my weird cinematic dreams. The other night, I dreamt about aliens that killed an entire hotel's worth of guests in order to free up room for them to stay. Then it became Star Wars, Imagined By Someone Who Has Never Seen Star Wars. And by that I mean it was just space sci-fi and way cooler. They had these huge bird creatures that killed the pregnant protagonist's husband, mother and sister-in-law. I could go on but that's not why we're here! Also I forgot most of it.

I was worried I'd have to do this all over again, but less, for CBD. But I find that organically, as I'm sober for longer, I'm caring less about it. I take hits off my disposable on occasion to take the edge off but that's really it? Most nights I'll take a massive rip from my indica but I'm not too dependent on it anymore. I'm almost out of sativa but honestly, I think I can just stick to indica now. I can't really tell the two apart anymore, except for the fact that indica makes me yawn like crazyyy.

We have edibles all around the house and my wife has taken up ownership of my dab pen. Even before I quit, I wasn't really using it. Anyway I've felt a slight "hmm" but otherwise haven't felt much desire to go back. I miss it sometimes, sure, but it's nothing my CBD can't provide. It doesn't seem worth breaking my streak.



Days 39-45 | Test 5.28.25 (+ almost - )

Experience:

I'm a bad scientist. I procrastinated on documenting this week so long that I forgot how I felt.

From here on out, I'm working 40 hours a week, on my feet for 8 hours a day, getting at minimum 7k steps in. No other exercise at the moment.



Days 46-52 | Test 6.4.25 (+ almost - )

Experience:

Sleep is better than it's ever been. I'm waking up at 8-9 am!! Holy shit!! I struggled with hypersomnia for years where I needed 10-13 hours of sleep to be functional, but I'm alright on 8 hours now. It turns out I fucking love mornings. My emotions are also like... not all over the place. But it feels like a veil has been lifted, right? I've been crying hysterically over nothing, which seems like a bad sign, but it's AWESOME. I used to be a big crier, then my dad bullied me out of it, so it feels liberating almost, to be able to express myself that way again.

This shit is fucking edging me man. Every week I'm like, "maybe this week is the week the line is dark enough to count as a negative!!! :D" NOPE!!!





Days 53-59 | Test 6.11.25 (-)

Experience:

I asked my mommy how she would call this test since I couldn't tell. She said it's a pass!! I'm still gonna keep doing this until that line is solid. But I'd finally be able to pass a test!! Even though, according to her, I have been passing for a few weeks now. She said:

lol.

No real changes to document. I'm in the clear.



Days 60-66 | Test 6.18.25 (-)

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Days 67-73 | Test 6.25.25 (-)

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Days 46-52 | Test 7.2.25 (-)

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