While using...
Before quitting I was a regular and heavy user.
- I smoked from a bong, at minimum 1 bowl of weed a day, every day, for 3 years. (2022-2025) For the last few months, that was closer to 2 bowls a day. I would occasionally wake and bake.
- Before then, I smoked joints and used a dab pen every day for about a year? (2021-2022)
- Even before then, I had been using a dab pen for 2 years, (2020-2022) every day - Except for Summer 2021, where I only vaped on weekends.
I quit because I'm looking for an internship, and a lot of them allegedly drug test. I also have OCD, and I had grown increasingly aware of the fact that my growing weed intake was having a negative impact on my mental health.
The cravings throughout the day grew too intense - I just had to get through the day so I could go home and take a huge bong rip. Speaking of bong rips, I would regularly get way too high, and I wouldn't have any fun at all. I've known for a long time that I needed to cut back or quit.
I also noticed that it was considerably impacting my social and creative life.
- I was doing fuckall. No reading, and I'd get too high to play video games or draw.
- I regularly was unable to make it to services as I had forgotten about them and smoked, or had a hard day and got high instead.
- I was rarely able to go out with friends on short notice as I was already too fucked up to leave the house.
- My "brand" kind of revolves around weed. I grew embarrassed of being the Token Stoner in my friend groups. Even when I quit smoking weed regularly, my ass is NOT giving up "bongripper". It's too good.
Finally, it was having pretty significant negative consequences for my cognition.
- I already have pretty considerable memory issues - as you can imagine, weed was only making this worse, and it began to impact my relationship.
- My brain feels sluggish and slow - I'm not as quick as I used to be, and sometimes it takes me a troublingly long time to process things or solve problems.
- Focus, too, is lacking. Another thing I already have difficulties with. When acclimated to these huge dopamine hits, more mundane tasks grew boring and difficult to complete.
Ultimately, the external pressure of a potential drug test is what caused me to pull the trigger.
Days 1-10 | Test 4.23.25 (+)
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Experience:
- Irritability/aggression
- Nausea
- Headaches/migraines
- Malaise/vague dysphoria
- Insomnia
- (Minor) depression
- Cravings
I had a horrible migraine and threw up (hard for me to do) on day 2, bought CBD the next day to ease symptoms, which has worked.
I purchased the left online at Holy City Farms and the right at my local head shop.
I was told that head shop flower would be lower quality than stuff you'd get at a dispo, but I gotta say, it knocks me out real good. I've slept like a baby since I bought it. When I'm wracked with pain and nausea, this is the flower I reach for - it soothes my nerves very nicely.
The following symptoms are being managed by daily CBD use:
- Nausea
- Headaches/migraines
- Insomnia
- Irritability?
- Cravings
Said irritability/aggression encouraged a (self harm!) relapse and nasty bruise on my thigh. Easily this is the worst bruise I've ever given myself.
[TW: SELF HARM - 4.21.25]
Even while "medicated", I feel like I don't belong in my body, and I feel generally uncomfortable at all times. I have lost interest in doing things that normally bring me joy, like 6 hour Cyberpunk 2077 binges, writing and drawing. I'm struggling to get homework finished - thank god I don't have much.
The cravings, of course, aren't gone. In my experience with kicking habits, replacing the habit is 90% of the battle. It was much easier to just replace THC (≥ 12%) with CBD (≤ 3%) while I detox. I don't intend on smoking nearly as much CBD once I'm finished with withdrawals - I'm just setting up myself for success!
I find full spectrum CBD has the same effects that I like from THC - it calms down my nervous system, which is notoriously over-reactive, and boosts my mood. It makes my body feel "softer", if that makes sense - there's a slight buzz, but I'm not intoxicated. It feels like how I felt the one time I experienced secondhand smoke.